I need to meet knew people here. I want to associate with people who are HEALTHY for me. This is just... exhausting and juvenile.
I need to meet people who are open-minded and non-judgemental. Not those who SAY they are but those who actually ARE. It's hard to find genuine people in this world but they're out there, more than one would think.
The people who live here say that this isn't a small town because there are even smaller towns surrounding. After living in Philly and in Springfield (which hardly counts as a city at all but has lots of people) this IS a small town to me. The way things get around here is absolutely retarded. People making shit up and then playing the inevitable kindergarden telephone game. If it's not about one person it's another; pisses me off. I shouldn't let it get to me because it's petty but it's always there. I suppose after while I might be able to numb myself to it, perhaps laugh about it. Sometimes I laugh about it anyway, the silly things that come up about me. I never did the sketchy 50yr old man who lived nearby, I never kissed that girl who is madly in love (not in love) with me, I am not two-faced, I don't snitch, I don't do drugs, I don't do porn, and I'm not 20 ys old (though it's nice to think that some might assume that I'm young enough to be a Smithie).