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May. 12th, 2009

funny :)

Apr. 13th, 2009

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The man in the room said, "Underneath every skirt is a slip".  I found this halerious; how true it is hahaha!

He then, after his joke, said "I speak to the man up on the hill and he helps me".

I said, "I speak to the hill and the universe helps me".

We shared in this vibrationally and agreed upon it's likeness.

Apr. 12th, 2009

What's the meaning of life? What is love?

Adam always asks me 2 questions: 
What's the meaning of life?
What is love?

Over the last several years I've tried to find a good answer for him.  Tonight I think I did kind of ok. 

The meaning of life is to find meaning in life. 

Love is infatuation x infinity.
Love = fries with ketchup and mayonnaise; it depends on your perspective.


The most Easter-like thing I do is eat candy.  No family dinners, no painting eggs, no bunnies.  Sephie told me that she painted an egg yellow and ate it, now that I could get in to especially with her.  Alas, I am stuck in NoHo.  I don't think my family is doing anything and even so I don't really want to.  I might get to see Adam tonight which would rock, I miss him lots.  I'll probably go to Renée's place once I get my lazy ass out of bed.  I wanted to hang out with my roomie but her bf's got her whipped so lord knows when I'll see her again.

I can't tell if I'm hungry.  This has been an issue lately, I'm never hungry.  Although there are times, like last night, that I will eat merely because it's THAT GOOD.  Last night Jerry made shrimp scampy and it was AMAZING *drool* I totally had multiple foodgasms like you wouldn't believe.  The dude went all out.  I'm back to not hungry again though, trying to figure out what I could possibly shove down my throat.

I dreamt last night that I got a kitten.  I want a kitten.  I go crazy without a furball. >^..^<
Renée shares Apollo with me for now:

Apr. 11th, 2009

Small Town

The people who live here say that this isn't a small town because there are even smaller towns surrounding.  After living in Philly and in Springfield (which hardly counts as a city at all but has lots of people) this IS a small town to me.  The way things get around here is absolutely retarded.  People making shit up and then playing the inevitable kindergarden telephone game.  If it's not about one person it's another; pisses me off.  I shouldn't let it get to me because it's petty but it's always there.  I suppose after while I might be able to numb myself to it, perhaps laugh about it.  Sometimes I laugh about it anyway, the silly things that come up about me.  I never did the sketchy 50yr old man who lived nearby, I never kissed that girl who is madly in love (not in love) with me, I am not two-faced, I don't snitch, I don't do drugs, I don't do porn, and I'm not 20 ys old (though it's nice to think that some might assume that I'm young enough to be a Smithie).

I need to meet knew people here.  I want to associate with people who are HEALTHY for me.  This is just... exhausting and juvenile.

I need to meet people who are open-minded and non-judgemental.  Not those who SAY they are but those who actually ARE.  It's hard to find genuine people in this world but they're out there, more than one would think.  

Why I never post

I stopped posting on a regular basis for a few reasons:
1) Gossip
2) Privacy
3) Internet access

I want to post regularly again but I feel that I can't be honest in my postings without being absolutely cryptic and vague; metaphorical.  Sometimes I just want to be blunt without writing some sonnet about why I hate _______.  You know?  I'm not quite sure how to address this but I guess it will work itself out.

Things that are ok to say:
- I'm doing alright.
- I miss my baby but I am going to see her soon!
- My girlfriend makes me happy.
- I <3 Blade too.
- I'm trying to get going on taking some more pictures but it's been a bit slow due to technical difficulties, yuck.
- I have been drawing portraits for people.  I did one of Persephone which I will scan someday.  It hangs above my dresser.
- I got to hang out with Michelle last night, she took me out for dinner and it rocked.
- I am doing a lot of soul searching and I think I am making some progress.
- I have been learning Native American flute and doing pretty well at it so I'm told.  I can make it pretty anyway.
- My flute tells on me.
- I have found that I cannot sleep while wearing socks.

I'll try not to be a stranger so much...

Jan. 7th, 2009

Hahaha I love Sinfest

Jan. 3rd, 2009

lmao wtf?

"We're walking around the forest, in America, at night.  Do you have any idea how dangerous this is? We could DIE!"  direct quote from the show Most Haunted

Jan. 1st, 2009


I'm still searching for a resolution...

Dec. 17th, 2008

Paris Life Models Protest Naked

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